"So buy me the ocean, and paint it with pretty stars. And sell me to something, take me anywhere but here."
time after time, telling me to go away, asking me to fuck off. i feel like there's nothing i could to help you feel better. don't ask me that going away will make you feel better. if it does, whats the point when i'm here for you and i'm here to care a fuck about you, and what? i should continue to be happy? you know me well, if you're feel sad, i eventually will feel sad too, and the more you tell me to fuck off, one day i eventually will make things worst. me and boyfriend are fire sign. which make us both with pros & cons. you know what happens when fire add fire. NOT SPARK you bitches. this isn't the first time already.. its just a game, why make yourself like this and get us pissed off with each other. ❝always my fault what❞ been dealing with it since forever. got used to it. used to what you gave me and still love you. ❝don't come talk to me, ever.❞ i hope i was strong enough to do that, i break down ever single fucking time to see your words like this. i don't say stuff to hurt you (if i do, i'm terribly sorry *insert hearts*) maybe, i wasn't good enough for you, maybe i should change for better, improve myself. sometimes, i get very tired of doing it. but the only thing that keep me going is you, and i give in. giving you up will break myself down and i'll let my world sink and fade away. i'm 20 and way mature. i know what i'm doing, just that i'm slow & wee bit of blur too.
❝because i love you, i let myself go and let you in. i love you more than myself, i want you to be happy, i want you to know that no matter what happens, i'm here for you. and no matter what you do, i have your back, and no matter how tough situation can be, i'll be in this with you, cause no matter what happens, you and i are together as one.❞ // baby, i'll never let you down